Is it wrong to forgive someone because youre tired of feeling emotion? because youd rather say "i forgive you" and honestly try to do just that, rather than have to add another emotion onto your long list? Hate should not be one of them.

i am afraid.

of what they can do. of what they wont. of what will become of Us. of what will become of Me. of whether or not my lies will be deciphered.

And as for you, good man that you are, Thank you. thank you for handling the situation so well and for accepting me into your family and giving me a chance. for being the father to him that his own has never been. i know you'll never hurt him. But not you, and not God, will decide this for me. this is My love. Our love. not yours. and im sorry for the dishonesty. but it was all that could be done.

I can change.

But not for any of you.

"Screwed"? In a year and a half, we have never once "screwed." i dont know what you do in your bed, but i know what i do in mine. and it will never be something so heartless.

Forgive me. Or dont. At this point it makes no difference. Im done pretending that i'll give you second chances.

Tell me to leave. And i'll do just that.